Sunday, January 17, 2016

Traveling turns you into a storyteller...

This past December I wanted to celebrate my birthday a little different. Being a December baby generally means that my birthday is spent cold but if you ask me that is no way to spend a birthday. I knew I wanted a warm birthday and it was only a matter of time before my dream would become reality.

Initially I planned to visit Costa Rica as a solo trip but I was blessed when a good friend of mine decided to come with. It's amazing how time away from home in a new place and with good company can be healing, humbling and restorative. I didn't know what to expect on my first trip to Costa Rica but God always knows how to surprise me.

I challenged myself on this trip and I decided that I wouldn't allow fear to keep me from trying new things and truly celebrating life. I spent each day on the beach enchanted by the waves as well as the calmness of the water. I spent an afternoon navigating the streets of Tamarindo on an ATV and was pleasantly surprised that we ended our 45 minute ride at a beautiful white sand beach. I got abroad a catamaran and spent an afternoon with amazing people from different parts of the world enjoying good food, great drinks and great conversation. I jumped off a boat and into the sea. I watched the sunset as I traveled by boat back to mainland. I fell in love with a country that was once only a dream.

My friends call me the world traveler and every time they do I laugh. I laugh and I thank God for the privilege that it has been to travel to new places, to fall in love with cultures and history, to meet amazing people and the photograph the sites that God lays before my eyes.

My journeys are not about passport stamps but the see the beauty of the world outside of my neighborhood and to get out of my comfort zone. With every opportunity to explore and to go on an adventure I truly thank God for the resources, the privilege and the opportunity to see these things come to fruition.   

It's just me enjoying the journey.

Monday, September 14, 2015

Afrique 2015

The only way I can imagine describing my 8 days in the DRC is by sharing pieces from my journal. Feel free to message me or post a comment if you’d like more details! Thank you for reading…

Friday: After a 16 hour flight experience with a 3 hour yoga session (layover) in Brussels we finally landed in Kinshasa! After thanking God for the safe journey…I cried. I cried because it struck me that I was finally home. Home as in the land of my ancestors who were carried off to Haiti from their motherland, Africa. I cried because there were so many distractions that could have come between me and this life changing experience...but God! I cried because I knew that this experience would forever leave me changed and though tearful I was excited that God was making room in my heart for Africa.

Let me start by saying that English is a foreign language here, the people in the DRC predominately speak French and Lingala. I am thankful for Joyce who translated for us throughout this trip. Fresh off the plane and it felt like home…when I speak of home…I am referring to the similarity to Haiti. Even though we landed at night 4 out of 5 of senses were immediately blessed…sight: seeing the taxis/buses/tap taps full of people traveling throughout the city; smell: inhaling the distinct scent of something burning (it’s probably not normal that I love this smell lol); touch: feeling the warmth in the air wrap its arms around me in a loving embrace; sound: the people talking and shouting, music blaring, and cars honking. Taste would be blessed upon our first stop for dinner at mom’s house. I’m pretty sure this meal started my love affair with Congolese food!

Saturday: I woke up at 630am to the light peeking through the curtain, with the sound of chickens and birds chirping in the background and the feeling like I am right where I need to be. Breakfast followed by devotions with the ladies I am on this missions with. Today and throughout the next 7 days our prayer is that God will reveal His purpose for us being on this missions trip; thousands of miles away from the comforts of home.  

Our devotion for this morning reminds me that it is so easy to find different things to distract myself with instead of truly being in the moment. I am thankful for the chance to disconnect; to not have to worry about if I “missed” anything and for being at peace right where God has me. My focus is being here, capturing moments I never want to forget.

We visited an open market today to purchase cloth that will be used to create  one of a kind pieces by a talented seamstress in the city. Think of Hay Market in Boston, which to many may be full of sights, sounds, smells and people. This market is similar in that people are buying and selling but what makes it different is the size and that at this market people are selling fresh food, fried food, cold drinks, cloth, clothes, sneakers, shoes, jewelry, souvenirs of all sorts, women are getting their hair braided and men are getting hair cuts. This list is not by any means exhaustive, you name it and they are probably selling it. One can only imagine how overwhelming that experience was but even greater than my discomfort was the reminder that there is no room here for complaining. I was reminded that this is their lives, this is how they eat and support their families, this marketplace is their livelihood and any discomfort I feel will only be temporary.

Sunday: On this lovely morning we went to church with Joyce’s family. The service was both in French and Lingala and I am thankful that Joyce is able to translate the service for us. The message this morning was definitely spirit led and exactly what our team needed to hear as we started our journey. He started his message with Matthew 6:33 (NIV) But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. One of the many things that resonated with me in his message was all too often we seek everything else…the job, the money, the boyfriend, the girlfriend, the material comforts of this world…and not the kingdom of God. In seeking everything but the kingdom of God our faith in Him and the power of His word is diminished. How can we pray for His will to be done in our situations when we aren't truly seeking Him but His hand? 

After church we went to visit the seamstress, Manman Layki, who owns her own shop and it was full of other seamstresses busy at work on their sewing machines. Everyone was welcoming and loved on us from the moment we stepped in to the moment we left.

Monday: Our first day with the girls at Matumaini. We introduced ourselves and immediately went to work at preparing their book bags for their first day of school. After packing their bags, helping them get dressed and then walking them to school we were all exhausted. I’m pretty sure I experienced every possible emotion that morning but I would not have changed it for a thing. We worked as a team to accomplish what needed to be done; from packing book bags to safely walking with them to school. We made light of the changes and chaos understanding that we are here, in the DRC, for a purpose greater than ourselves…we are here to build relationships, to live missionally, and to love unconditionally. 

After a long morning at Matuamaini we visited Fleuve Congo (Congo River) and could see the other Congo across the water. A truly breathtaking sight to see God’s creative hand at work. 

Tuesday: We spent the afternoon and evening with the girls at Matumaini. The moments that stood out for me were being able to read with some of them in English and then having them read to me in French. Connecting with the girls in spite of the language barrier was heart warming. Being able to love on them through a smile, a hug, a gentle and warm greeting in French meant everything to me. We also had the opportunity to have a mini English lesson which the girls loved. We helped them to get past their fear and saw great breakthrough in all of the girls! As a team we continued to work together and today reminded me that we, as a team, won't always agree but we must ALWAYS show each other love and respect. 

Wednesday: I led devotional this morning and shared Ecclesiastes 3:1 For everything there is a season, and a time for every matter under heaven. This scripture has been on my mind for weeks before going to the DRC and I was thankful for the opportunity to share it with the ladies. Each of us are in a season in our lives that we may love or hate. I often find myself praying for a breakthrough or for the season to come to an end because my heart at times feels like it cannot take much more. I am constantly reminded of the fact that even though there is a time for everything, the length of a season or situation is based on God's timing. This is honestly difficult for me at times but I am learning that in my lamenting on the season or situation I am losing sight of how God continues to move in spite of the situation. At the right time the season/situation will come to an end but how you glorify God through the situation/season means everything. 

We spent the afternoon and evening with the girls and truly have experienced a great sense of peace and joy as we reflect the love and light of God. More reading, more English lessons, more singing, dancing and enjoying our time together. We can see the girls becoming more comfortable with us and forming bonds. Today they have begun to ask if we would come back to visit them again, referring to the future.

Thursday: Honestly it feels like the days are going by too fast! Today the girls are back from school and each of them looks exhausted. I can only imagine how difficult school can be for them; between the teachers and discipline/rules. We helped the girls gift wrap their notebooks, think of book covers for text books, except each of their notebooks needs to be covered or else their homework won't be checked/graded. 

We spent half the day at Matumaini and then went back to the seamstress to try on our clothes. We also learned more about Manman Layki and how her shop gives her the chance to empower others who are handicap to use their skills to make a living. Having a disability in the DRC makes earning money a huge issue and I am thankful for her heart and that she gives each of these women a chance at a better life.

We spent the evening enjoying appetizers, live music and great company at Grand Hotel Kinshasa. This was our first encounter with an upscale hotel and it is evident that there is a great disparity in wealth here. People are either really poor: living in neighborhoods with no paved roads, only source of income is from panhandling, electricity is not consistent and water is a luxury you cannot afford--or really wealthy: paved roads, luxurious homes, running water, no power outages, no lack, higher prices for food etc. I'm thankful for the experience of seeing the differences because they help me to appreciate the little that I have and to pray for equality abroad and at home. Our evening ended with laughter and God knows that my spirit is always in need of this rest and good company.

Friday: Half of our team stayed at Matumaini with the girls to go to the market to buy ingredients to make pondu and the other half went to the Academie des Beaux-Arts. The Academie is a school devoted to teaching the arts to the student, who then create beautiful and breathtaking pieces of art. I am thankful for the privilege that it is to see some of the students at work and was able to support their work by purchasing a few pieces.

Saturday: My last day in the DRC and it is truly bittersweet. How was Africa? It was amazing. It was humbling, eye opening and nothing like I feared. Congo welcomed us with open arms, ready to receive us, house us and love on us. We lacked for nothing and were only asked to give back through love. Loving on these who have been here for us throughout our stay as well as loving on the girls of Matumaini. I'm so thankful that my first experience in Africa was with this group of women serving these children of God. Words can't describe the joy that my heart is full! 


Praying for the girls before we left was the hardest thing I've ever done. I cried as I prayed for God's covering and favor over their lives. I cried as I hugged them goodbye. I cried as they poured out their love for me through letters written in both English and French. I cried not of sadness, as I know this is not our last goodbye, but because the last 8 days with them have truly been transforming and my love for them is real. I cried because this opportunity could not have happened if God had not willed it. I cried because God's purpose for EACH of us is so real.

Matumaini I will never forget you. I will never forget these girls that you entrusted in our care. I will never forget these girls no matter how far away we may be from each other. I will miss your love, not expressed simply through words but through your heart. Thank you for teaching me how to truly love with more than words but with my whole heart.     

Wednesday, May 20, 2015

How will you respond?

I am so thankful for old journal entries because I find them at those times when I need to be encouraged the most…

Luke 12:25 Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to your life?

I’m thankful for where I am and for this season because I know that I am here for a greater God purpose. Each day is an opportunity to choose how I will respond to what life throws at me. I can choose to approach life with either 1. an attitude that reflects Christ and to speak life regardless of the situation or 2. an attitude that reflects the world and focus on the doom and gloom surrounding the situation. Today, I am choosing to reflect Christ no matter how “weird” that may appear to others. I am choosing to trust that God can and will work everything out for my good. Believe me choosing to not to worry and meditate on what is going wrong around me is HARD but at the end of the day I walk away feeling less drained by not focusing on the problems. God continues to give me His peace which enables me to keep moving forward.

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Truthfully worry and doubt try to creep in every now and then but the beautiful part of the story is that I am not on this journey alone. I will continue to rest in God’s love and will trust this beautiful God driven journey.

Be blessed.

New Orleans 2015

Recently I had the pleasure of traveling with a good friend of mine of 20+ years to New Orleans, LA. Though we were only in town for a few short days we made time to explore the city, take beautiful pictures and make lasting memories. I can honestly say that I fell in love with something new every day. 
The 46th Annual New Orleans Jazz and Heritage Festival was the main reason for our visit. A first for the both of us and ultimately  a wonderful experience and I hope to make it an annual trip. Thousands of people from all over the world gathered to hear good music, eat delicious food and enjoy the perfect weather for the weekend. The Festival was jam packed with talented artists and it was exactly what I needed to unwind and relax.

Let me just say New Orleans is FULL of character, colors and sounds! But to be completely honest being able to experience the city before the tourists awoke for another round of revelry was by far my favorite part of the trip. In the quiet of the city streets I found a beauty and a peace in New Orleans that I haven’t experienced in a while. We woke up one morning just to watch the sunrise over the Mississippi River and it was breathtaking. It reminded me that the darkness is only temporary and once it's time has come the light will return. The darkness could be pain, hurt, feeling of loss or disappointment, anything that feels heavy on our hearts and ultimately hinders our ability to hope. That darkness comes to rob us of our joy, our light and our hope but I thank God that His light and love never fails.

I thank God for the ability to travel different parts of the world and to experience the beauty of His creation. I don’t take it for granted the privilege that it is to do this and I pray for more opportunities to see the world. 

Be blessed.

Thursday, April 30, 2015

Homeless in Boston

Ask me what I do and I will tell you a stories full of hurt, pain and loss. I will take you for a ride through the stories of those who have faced the worst seasons of their lives but have not given up. The stories are heart breaking but honest and need to be heard. 

What do I do?
I am a Case Manager at a homeless prevention program in Boston which caters to the elderly population. The unique aspect of my position is the foundation that housing is as necessary as any medicine that can be prescribed for physical or mental health. We prescribe housing and once it becomes stable we witness drastic changes in every area of the lives of our clients.

I would have never put elderly and homeless together until I started this position and to be completely honest each and every new case wrecks my heart. Once these elders are referred to our program they are in various stages of crisis. Some are having difficulties with landlords and need an advocate, others are in the process of eviction and need assistance navigating the legal system and others are homeless and need help with housing search. None of these scenarios have simple or easy solutions. Advocating for our clients is priority in each case but never as straight forward or easy as it may seem. The legal system for tenants is daunting and confusing to navigate and without the knowledge of volunteer lawyers and resources available to them for free our clients sometimes end up making agreements that are not in their best interests. Housing search sounds simple right? Find an apartment, pay rent, happily ever after? Now enter the fact that most of the elders that I work with are collecting social security or disability income and are on a fixed income. Next add that the cost of living for a one bedroom in Boston is generally more than 60% of their income. Is the picture getting clear? These elders are in a compromising situation as it is but now imagine if there were an unexpected illness or a expense arises that needs immediate attention. They are forced to live paycheck to paycheck and without the assistance of subsidized elderly housing they are forced to make hard decisions. Unfortunately these hard decisions can lead to the non-payment of rent.

Most days I am left drained and frustrated but I am quickly reminded that these elders sometimes have no one else fighting for them or on their side. I am reminded that I am in this position not to solve these problems in my own strength but to trust God. I’ve walked into meetings trusting God for the strength to get through difficult conversations and sometimes to get through the day. I’m reminded daily that I am in this position for a reason and part of that reason is to intercede on the behalf of my clients in prayer. Honestly only God can make a way out of no way and I have seen him at work in the short time that I have been in this position.

Why am I sharing all of this?
If you live in Boston or any city to be honest I am sure that you have seen the growing homeless population. Most people are not sympathetic to the homeless and it is easy for us to think the reason people are homeless is because they are lazy and don't want to work. My hope is that by sharing a glimpse of what I do that you will look at homelessness in a different light. Every story is different and I hope that we will learn to stop labeling and start to think about how can we help come up with solutions to support others in crisis.

"Who are we to give up, when the people we have been given the opportunity to serve never give up on themselves?" 

Saturday, March 7, 2015

Let those walls come down...

Someone recently commented that I was different from the person they originally met last year and I considered her comment for a moment and honestly all I could say was "I don’t know who I was back then but I’m not her anymore.” I count it a blessing to be able to grow and mature as I continue this journey with Christ. I am not perfect and I pray that I continue to become a better me but I am so thankful that even though I am not where I want to be God chooses to use me.

One of today’s many lessons: God wants to use us in every area of our lives. There is no part of me that He should be withheld from and honestly that can be hard. I have had some relationships that were truly one sided and only served the interests of the other party and upon realizing the truth those relationships had to end. Even though those people were no longer active in my life that part of me was left scarred. After it was all said and done I unconsciously guarded myself against further harm by essentially not being open to new relationships. This was a “great” idea at the time but in doing so I actually kept God from healing my brokenness. I often need to be reminded that God can and will heal my brokenness and make me whole again IF I allow Him to. So regardless of past relationships that have subsequently left me hurt and have caused me to put up walls time and time again I am choosing to allow God to use those area of my life for His glory. 

With all of that being said I believe that God allows me to meet new people for a reason. Some relationships last for years and others may only last for a few minutes. The direction that these relationships go in is up to those involved but I’ve learned that when I decide to look past my self interest and seek God for direction He has a beautiful way of revealing things to me. I used to wonder why people were so open when they shared with me and I believe that part of this interaction is God’s way of giving me their prayer requests…all without me having to ask. Once given this information it is up to me to be intentional about taking those prayers up to Him. Though I may be apprehensive at first when it comes to meeting new people I believe that God has a greater purpose than I can ever imagine and He won't lead me where He hasn't already prepared a way. I place my trust in His direction.

Cheers to making new friends and forever maturing into the Queen/King God created you to be.

Be blessed.

Thursday, January 29, 2015

Learning as I go...

Sometimes our focus is so narrow that we can’t see or appreciate the bumps along the journey for what they are. For me, they are life lessons designed to slow me down and redirect me to the source; God. Honestly, those bumps that I encounter don’t feel good but I believe in those moments God is bringing me back to a place where I can reflect on what my motives are. Are all of my efforts for my personal glory or for God? 

As I sit here writing I recall one of my recent bumps—not feeling like my photography was “good enough”. In that moment I forgot that my talents and my gifts are to bring God glory. In that moment I wasn’t meditating on the fact it is God who placed this gift within me. All I could seem to do in that moment was compare myself to others. But God didn’t allow me to stay in my pity party for long. I was reminded that it is God who makes these wonderful opportunities available for me and He wouldn’t place me where I am today if He thought that I wouldn’t be able to handle it. I realize now that I am my worst critic and I am a lot harder on myself and a lot more critical of my work than others—which is both a GOOD (pushes me to get better and learn more) and a BAD (negative evaluations of my own work which causes an increase in stress and anxiety of how I will perform) thing. 

My goal is to put God in the forefront. To remind myself daily why I started and why I need to keep on going. My goal is to share the beauty of God’s creation with the world and I hope that you’ll journey with me as I travel along this thing called life.